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AUGUST 20 - I am 35 years old today. Wow, I have lived this long! I always thank GOD for life, for gifts and numerous blessings! I have a wonderful family. We are very close.  I don’t have secrets from them. My parents are easy to talk to. My sister Joy is like my "barkada," her friends are also my friends. My brother Gee and I often joke around. My sister in law, Maricar and I gossip. My three nephews, Rico, Gio and Franz are my dearest loves. I regret that I don’t spend much time with them with since I am here in NY. Most of my relatives and cousins are also my friends. I also have many treasured friends… friends who I talk, chat or email almost everyday; and friends who I may not see or chat or email often but they are in my heart.

I have survived a betrayal (it really hurt) but I have moved on. But this has caused me to be clinical depressed (I went to a psychiatrist) and it’s hard for me to trust people easily especially the guys (sorry guys).The annulment has finally been granted this year. I am still waiting for the legal papers to reach me here. A chapter really closed now. Long overdue.

Friends (you know who you are) tell me that the right guy is there waiting for me. Maybe by the time, he is ready to show himself or to tell me how he feels, I’ll be ready for him. Ahem!

I also survived a "death." Two years ago, I had a close call because of my asthma. Janette and Dits had a good sense to do CPR, mouth-to-mouth resuscitation… and the abilty to drive fast. I was unconscious and blue in Dits’ home but they reached the hospital in Iloilo in time. I was OUT for about an hour or two. I was in the ER and then ICU for 8 hours, then moved to a regular room but still using an oxygen. The consultant doctor told me that if not for the resident, Dr. Ray Alindong’s quick decision and early first aid, I would have been brain dead or worst, really dead. No, I did not see the white light or the tunnel. I woke up too soon. The tube was painful.

Just a week before my birthday, I suffered unexpainable headaches! It turned out to be a migraine! I never had it before it was undiagnosed for awhile. Papa kept telling me to go see a doctor but his stubborn daughter went on the 5th day. The doctor gave me a pill and it was gone. My atopic dermatitis is back (my skin really doesn’t like the east coast’s weather) but I’ve accepted it as part of my life… a little more sacrifice before getting my goal. I’ll be back in Bacolod before we know it.

I still really haven’t settled in New York. I still have a part time, temporary position in Barnes and Noble. Next week, may be my last week. Although, my old position has become available just two weeks ago. I might apply, it could be given to me, or not. The staffing agency I applied to can also give me jobs. It’s good to have choices.

I am forever grateful for Daday, Geraldine, Jows and Rogielyn who are always supporting me and encouraging me. Others too…. (too many to mention)

Birthdays are special to me. I love to celebrate. I enjoy reminding family and friends of their birthdays.

Today, I have a quiet day. I am home, writing this blog and listenning to the Tanging Yaman movie CD sent by JP Y for my birthday. I am just relaxing or just being lazy. But, hey, it’s my day, I can do whatever I want. I am going to mass later.

I received numerous phone calls, text messages, emails, e-cards and prayers since the beginning of the month. It was my birthday yesterday in the  Philippines. Mom was the first to greet me. I thanked her for giving me life (with Papa’s help), for which, she responded,  you are God’s special gift to us.

Thank you everyone for your greetings and also for the gift of family, friendship and love.

GOD BLESS US ALL!

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